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Thursday, October 21st, 2004
2:51 pm	Those Damn Red Sox So,I was really upset about that damn gaem last night, what the hell, those yanks could've tried a little harder, oh well, maybe next year! SO, my house is finally all put together. My dining room table is being delivered today! Yippee, it is so nice and I am excited about it! WOO HOO! Doug and all his boyus from tenn. are driving down today! AWESOME! we'll be getting crazy this weekend. Going to the dashboard concert this weekend! Holla! It'll be much fun! I've called so many people about design jobs already , what a difficult task! It's so hard to be a responsible adult and make adult decisions and still be a fun loving young person. But of course I can't let that bring me down. Drinks are still very important at certain points. So, Smells sent me pictures of the princess, OMG could she be any bigger, I'm missing out on sooooooo... much. She's growing so fast! I cousin is graduating this year, geez, they grow quick. My other cousin is going to some formal, of course we have to approve of her dress first! LOL Them boys better keep them hands to their selves, I know how young boys are! LOL ANyways, gotta go wait for my table. CHOW Current Mood: hungry Current Music: something sweet (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
2:28 pm	HOLY CANNOLI I finally remembered my password . HOly cow now. I have internet access and I'm back in bussiness! HIYA doll. SO, jacksonville is my new home AGAIN. Weird a little but it'll be fabulous I know. My place is HUGE! Lovin it, lovin it! Be Jealous! gotta go shopping. later skater Current Mood: chipper Current Music: silence (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 21st, 2002
7:02 pm	sittin all alone on my bedroom floor So, I haven't journaled in about 2 months, mainly because i had no computer, and also because I have living a very hectic life. everyday blurs into the next, and it seems life fades in and out. I was working at Wet seal ( the hispanic hoochie mama clothes store) it went well, but the pay was worse than dog shit., so, needless to say, i quit! It was a good move on my part except now it is so hard to find a replacement job. I have an interview tomorrow for a teaching position at a dance studio in mandarin, or orange park. Radwan left me 3 weeks ago to go to boot camp. It has been a long 3 weeks and though I miss him tremendously everyday that he is not here, I know that in 71 days my baby will be a United States Marine! He hates it with a passion so far. He wants to come home so bad. I know though that on November 1 when he graduates, he will be so proud that he toughed it out. They issued him a M-16 ( that's a good gun I guess) He was happy about that. Marriage seems to be more tempting to him now that he is in boot camp, but that may change. I love him so much. I will sit and patiently await his return. I am goin to parris Island on Friday to see Mike Graduate. I can't believe he has been gone 3 months already. Mrs.Ekkawi, andrea, and Staff Sergeant Wicker and I are goin to see him proudly walk across that stage as he is for the first time acknowledged as a US Marine. What an honor. It'll be so nice to have Michael home! Danielle I guess is prego! I haven't seen her in eons. Things change and life stretches you i guess. She just turned 18! It's about god-damn time! I can't believe how everyone is growing up. I remember when we were like 12 and Mr.Rick sent Joey to the van! And how Jeannine tripped and busted herself up during the races we did! OMG and danielle and I started laughing at her! OMG that was so funny! Aww..the good old days! I miss all the fun things we used to do! Now, it isn't so innocent anymore. Now it's getting crunked! hahahah!!!! Anyways, life goes on. I need a damn job! I miss my Boy! I want a diamond ring! Peace in arabia! Jodelle Current Mood: calm Current Music: the silent sound of time drifting by (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 22nd, 2002
11:23 pm	FBI searches boxes.......Bin Laden- your ass is gonna fuckin die! Well, I had the Worst weekend. I have a $120.00 vet bill due and my kitten ( 9 weeks old) died on saturday morning! It was the most terrible thing ever seeing a precious little kitty dead ( and hard as a rock) lying dead on the floor. Then to make matters worse, When I got home at 3:00 in the morning on sunday...I got a call from my mom, who was hysterical, because my great grama died. So, i had a terrible weekend of crying and shit. God, I hate life sitautions that tear your heart into 50,000 different pieces. On another note, i come home tonight to find a note on my door along with all my neighbors informing us that the FBI has been investigating packages at our complex and we now have to fill out a form informing the complex of the packages we will be expecting or whom we are expecting them from, and if someone's name is not on the list and they send something it will be denied. Holy cow herd, what is our world comming too? I also noticed that my door is literally in all sense of the word falling apart. I showed Radwan and he thinks it looks like my door has been kicked in. My door is So UN-secure. I'm very nervous about that and the fact that I live on my own. Jesus- keep me safe! Mike ( my favorite friend of Radwan's, and one of the greatest guy's i've ever met) is leaving for boot camp for the MARINES on tuesday. He will be back right as Radwan will be leaving, so i guess it'll be nice to have him around while Radwan is gone, however i will miss Mike very much. Radwan, ( along with Mike and some others) graduate this comming saturday morning ( the 25th) and this friday ( the 26th) is Radwan's and mine 6 month anniversary. I have noticed that these past 6 months have gone by sooooo... fast but yet it feels like we've been together for years. I feel so connected with him and I am learning more and more about his family every day. I am trying to become more involved and get to know his family very much more. It is a very interesting experience i must say, but all for the good in the long run. Anyways, that is the latest. Peace in the Middle East. Fire the Weapons and kill those damn Arabs! Joey Current Mood: nervous Current Music: Matchbox 20 (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 12th, 2002
11:27 pm	Thank you Eve for keeping us all in mind. YOU ARE A BAD WOMAN!!! Well, it's been quite a while since I last updated my journal, mainly cause I've been busy falling more and more in love. I got a kitten yesterday! He is the dcutest cat I have ever seen, what an angel too. He is very well mannered, already litter trained, and he is so loveable! He is 9 weeks old, and looks so absolutely cute all the time. He has stripes and spots, has mocha almond colored eyes, and the cutest brown sugar ears! Sounds ackward I know, but I promise if you saw him, you'd just fall in love. Radwan actually likes him!!! So, you know it must be a good animal! We named him Toby. Actually, Radwan thought of the name and I think it works just great! So, It is official, I FINALLY have myself a kitten. It's about time considering I've been looking for one since Jan. Anyways, I am NOT working, that's right you heard me correctly, though I NEED to get a job. I know I've said that a lot but I really am gonna start working since it's summer and I wanna have a great summer with my man before he leaves in August, and you know having a good time calls for money. Plus my kitten needs to go to the doctors in a few weeks, and I owe my mom so much money! Anyways, my stomach really really hurts, and I think i should go to bed. so, with that.... Ta Ta and farewell. Jodelle Current Mood: hot Current Music: Usher (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 5th, 2002
9:06 pm	It's getting HOT in here.......... OMG! I feel like shit! I got really sick this past weekend. I don't even know how! Poor Danielle ( she came to visit) had to put up with me mopin around, which of course I couldn't help cause I really felt terrible. I don't know if it's the flu or what, but whatever it is, I wish it would go away! I miss my boy already, and it hasn't even been an hour since i took him home. I don't like saying goodbye to him. We had a good weekend overall though, even though i didn't feel well. He took care of me as much as possible. It was cool to have my best friend in the World and my Boy with me for the weekend! I wouldn't trade that for anything. Anyways, I'd like to sit here and continue telling you about my weekend, but i feel like i'm about to die, I don't feel good at all. Later Current Mood: sick Current Music: 95.1 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 2nd, 2002
11:34 pm	CLOUD 9! Can't believe the way things work out!!! I LOVE RADWAN! I LOVE RADWAN! I LOVE RADWAN! I can't believe that no matter what happens, if someone REALLY,REALLY, TRULY loves you, everything works out. I am the most luckiest girl in the whole entire World! I LOVE RADWAN! I LOVE RADWAN! I LOVE RADWAN! Current Mood: relieved (4 Comments |Comment on this)
3:09 pm	It's not so bad! I think sometimes things happen and for no reason, but why does it hurt so bad, if it's for no reason? Things I will never understand! I can't take all this chaos anymore. I'm trying to let it slip off my mind, yet it's times like this that things don't just slip away, they just get buried deeper. Hopefully one day it'll all be dug up and thrown out. It's like eating something sticky and feeling it stick to your insides, and no matter what you drink or medicine you take to get it to go away, it just sits inside, attached to your intestines. It just can't be gotten rid of. Hopefully everything will smooth out and slip away without My realization. That would be really nice, but of course, it isn't gonna happen that way. What ever does? Anyways, I'm off to hit the shower, and wait patiently for the one that I love. It seems that when i see him, all the pain and chaos slips outta my mind. He takes it all away! I'm so lucky to have him, without him, I'd never get through all this! Always Faithful! 637 Current Mood: distressed Current Music: Eminem - "I am whatever I say I am!" (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 1st, 2002
11:06 pm	Ripping my hair out! I can't take all this shit anymore! *FED UP* I seriously can't handle it anymore. I'm just ready to give up on everything. This World is so fucked up! I can't take it. I really can't take anymore! God- help me keep my sanity cause it's slowely slipping away! -I HATE Money! $$$ -I HATE My Biological father. He is such an Asshole. -I HATE Alcohol. -I HATE how everyone judges me, without even knowing me. -I HATE having a disfunctional family. -I HATE that my boyfriend ( the only person who is even worth being around for anymore) is leaving in 4 months. -I HATE that I can't get a ligitament Job! -I HATE not being able to pay my fuckin bills. -I HATE being on my own. -I HATE that i don't even have a family anymore. -I HATE that my dad (step dad, who is now divorced from my mom, so i feel like i don't even have a father anymore since he moved to Monatana)Doesn't keep in touch very often. -I HATE telling people things, ( I thought i could trust you, i guess not.), ( you know who the hell you are) -I HATE thinking you can talk to someone, and then find out they treat you like shit. -I HATE knowing that the one person i thought would understand, Fucks me over, and can't even really be straight up with me anymore. I've decided that no-one, ( one person in this world is all) is even worth any of my fuckin thoughts anymore. I don't trust anyone, other than this one person. It really sucks too when the one person you realize you can actually confide in is going so far away for a long time. I'm screwed after that. What the fuck am i too do. God, I wish i would've never confided in a friend, way to hold it over my fuckin head! I can't even talk to you anymore. I still love you, always will and things don't change, but I'm hurt. Really hurt. I thought you'd always be there for me. I guess i was naive to think that, or even believe it. SHIT HAPPENS...It can't just be forgotten about anymore. I know i'm gonna hear it; from saying things that i've just said, but you know what. It's my journal. That's a place I write my thoughts, so if your mad or offended..don't read my journal! *Punching my wall* I miss my brother. I wish he were here, then maybe someone would listen and care! "God, please take away all the pain. I can't take it anymore. I don't trust myself! Please help me!" Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: EMINEM.....Maybe now I'll let his music influence me! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
6:41 pm	Like everything is , "Brock this and Brock that and my tattoo". Well, I am about to got to the store since i have nothing in my house! I'm actually gonna make dinner tonight for the first time in a while. I found out today that I have a court hearing on the 9th, so that should be interesting. Were gonna win though, my dad has nothing on me. My baby is outta school in 9 days! I can't wait! Anyways....I'm off to conquer the world! Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: eminem (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 30th, 2002
6:57 pm	Jeff Gordon kicks ass! So, I must say. I don't even know why the hell people say that dating is wrong. you know when we were growing up and all the youth leaders at church were against it. NO PURPLE! lol I can'[t even believe it, because it is the best thing in the world. The greatest feeling is to love someone and know that they love you back. I have the best boyfriend in the world. I can't stop talking about him. The past few days have been some of the best in my life! Semper Fi forever baby! Current Mood: drained Current Music: Nickleback (Comment on this)
3:43 pm	danielle smells like kung fu chicken I love you smells! COme visit me you homo! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:21 pm	Why has the World gone mad! I can't take all this shit no more! Keepin it real!!! I went down to Ft.Lauderdale this past weekend which it was a very fun, at moments very sad time. A learning experience to say the least! I love my best friend with all my heart. I hate to see her going through so much pain. I don't even understand why everything seems to be falling apart on every end of everyone's spectrum, but...SHIT HAPPENS! Or at least that's what Amber says! Despite all the chaos and hurt, I had a good time. Danielle and I went to Denny's at like 2 in the morning on friday ( it was still thursday night to me) I was so hungry. We looked ridiculous in our P's! It was fun though. I got ot see Chris Ca$h! He is such a sweet boy. It's so nice to have good friends like him. I wish his dad would've been around, but ya know he is a busy man with things to do. Anyways...I met some really funny people ( Chris's friends) this weekend. It'll be so funny to see the pictures. I took 3 rolls fo film! Anyways....So, Radwan and I are just chillen yesterday when all of a sudden my electricity goes out. Weird! It was out about 2 hours and The office was closed so i had no idea what had happened. Then about 2 hours later i get up to go pee (sorry, if your grossed out cause i said pee instead of the bathroom) And the water isn't running either! What the fuck? My aunt called and told me that the power plant caught on fire and electricity would be out for a while and that we shouldn't be on the road. like 80 percent of the city was without electric. How weird right. My baby and I went to Publix while we still had some light out, and they were just closed, so we had to go to albertsons instead, it was so chaotic. The store was like dark and there were rushes of people everywhere. Little kids walking around by themselves, just really eerie feeling. It felt like it was a hurricane or September 11th all over again. By the time we got outta the store it was so dark outside. Since ALL the lights in the city were out ( or least the part of the city i live in ) we couldn't see shit. It was so scary. Radwan stayed here cause it wasn't safe to be on the roads. Which of course, like every other time got bitched out about. Or well, kinda at least. I understand i guess, Parents care yea, but there comes a time in a person's life when you have to let go. I dunno, i won't even get into it, cause i know some of you ( I won't mention names)are gonna read this entry and probably say something about it. But, whatever, I'll save myself from the shit talks. I got my tattoo on saturday. Chris Ca$h took me and Danielle and Jay met us up there, Of course they didn't get there until AFTER it was done. They walked in right as the guy was putting the gauze on it. It looks so nice. I'm very happy with it, and it didn't even hurt that bad. It was SO different from what i had expected it to be. My baby boy was very upset with me. I had failed to wait for him, which was selfish and inconsiderate on my part because it meant a lot to him. But, We talked about it, and it's all good now. I love him so much. I am so blessed! He likes my tattoo a lot! I have to say myself, i think it looks bad ass! The guy did a great job. He does really nice work. Anyways...ON a different note. I went to work yesterday ( i was so tired) and it went well unitl the last the 10 minutes when they talked about a contest they were gonna do for us, and we had one evening to sell as much product as possibe. Well, I don't wanna sell the products becasue it is a little bit devious. They sell designer fragrances. It is the same fragrance as you'd buy in the department stores but it is in a different ( or as they call it, wholesale) bottle and box. Basically they make you believe that you are buying the same stuff as in department stores but really it is different. Yea, basically it's a lie. I decided i didn't feel comfortable working for a company that is gonna straight up lie to the consumer. I mean these people are so funny and i love hanging out with em cause they have so much energy and fun, but i just can't lie about something like that and rip someone else off. So, i'm back on the market for looking for a job! It's ok though cause i'm at peace with it. I had the best talks with my boy lately and we seem to keep growing closer and closer. He is so precious. I don't even know how i got him. I don't deserve him. It's like running a race and losing but still getting the first place medal. I feel like a ran and lost, but still got rewarded anyways. He is my angel. I know that when he leaves, it'll all be ok. Anyways...I have to hop in the shower and finish cleaning up my place. Till next time... J*O*E*Y I LOVE Radwan Ekkawi!!! Semper Fi baby! 637! Current Mood: content Current Music: silence is golden! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 16th, 2002
11:38 pm	hey, hey. 19.....kinda snotty, acting real rude! Well.... I'm finally 19! It's about time! Woo-Hoo! My birthday wasn't the greatest, but at least i had my man around, that made it better! He's the best! I'm still in the process of finding a job! My dad misses me a lot. He sent me some money and stuff so, that is cool. I've been sick lately. Sick cause i've been a little sad and down about some stuff. but other than that, i'm doing alright. Not a whole lot has gone on in a while. Radwan is getting along better with his family, so that's a good thing! I think he should go home, since he leaves soon. Anyways, danielle never came to visit. Why am i not surprised. She hasn't called or written or anything lately. Thank you Jay for stealing her from the world, it's all your damn fault. You better treat her good and be worth all this. I gave Sammie to mom to take care of for a little bit. She is so cute. She had to go to the vet though. Good thing mom had her, cause i sure as hell didn't wanna pay that bill! She's doing so good though! Anyways, like i said, not much has gone on lately. so you get to sit there and read all this stupid nonsense that i'm typing due to boredom. Anyways... I guess i'll go now, and find something in this house that is productive. Later Current Mood: mellow Current Music: some stupid song that i wish this station would stop playing (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 13th, 2002
12:10 pm	Oh Boy! To start...I have the BEST boyfriend in the World. I am am truly blessed. Jacksonville seems to get better and better every day i guess, My aunt and her family just moved into a very nice, large house about 10 minutes from where they did live. It's really nice! Radwan and I helped them move in all last week pretty much. We did a lot of painting and sealing grout. I guess it's all for a good cause, seeing how we'll be spending a lot of time there i'm sure. I've been going to be dabout 3 every night, which leaves me still so freakin tired all day long. Yesterday We went to Vero to drop my car off since it's shitting out on me. It needs to be fixed, my mom made an apple pie, which came out good, and Radwan let my mom cut his hair. It turned out kinda bad. Whatever though, he's still the cutest!I was pretty upset though cause it was 11:30 before we even left and i had to drive home, And I was so tired. My eyes felt like there was glass in them. Radwan drove the last hour or so. I fell asleep on the way home and could hardly keep my eyes open, so I stayed here @ Dwight's last night. Radwan woke me up this morning cause some guys were gonna do some cunstruction stuff or soemthing in the rrom i was sleeping in; They still haven't even started. I'm still tired but whatever, i guess it's time to start my day seeing how it's already half over! I still haven't gotten my package Danielle says she sent. Those Damn post people! I bet someone else in Taiwan has my package! I need mail in my mailbox. I can't handle gettting thinds ONLY from my mom and bill collectors! Geez...I'm just a kid, people stop sending me so many damn bills! Anyways, enough rambling on and on.... I'm going downstairs to eat pie! Laterz.... Jodelle Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Silence.....The golden sound! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 8th, 2002
4:53 pm	Life's a Bitch! Well, still no job! I really, really NEED to find something really soon. I'm feeling really gross lately. I'm way stressed out. My ferret shits all over the floor all the time, And my dad ( biological) is taking me to court! Geez, life is so crazy, I'm so sick of this damn roller coaster ride. Whatever though. On, the up side. I still have the best boyfriend ever. He has kept me sane thus far, and my birthday is on sunday! Woo-Hoo. Danielle is suppose to come visit me but i doubt she will. We'll see what happens. This year has to be batter than last! PLEASE be better! I need to get a roomate for real. That way it will help with the finances and give me company! If only the people i trust lived closer. Anyways, i'm off to call Radwan, maybe help clean dwighty's house. Later folks! Current Mood: crappy Current Music: green day- paradise (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 6th, 2002
11:13 pm	My love in a bag, floating down the mississipi river. Well, i went to an interview at Ann Taylor tonight, and skipped dance. I guess it's cool, i think i'll get the job more than likely. I have some connections! LOL, anyways It's like 30 minutes form me, but who the hell cares, it means MONEY $$$ *Cha-Ching* After i pay off all my damn bills, i'll get to go to ft.lauderdale, and just chill out with my baby and not have to worry about being so damn poor. God, why the hell is money all the damn world cares about. Anyways, I came to dwight's to eat and hang out cause Radwan cooked dinner for me, and everyone else. I guess it's cool that he lives here now, at least when i'm aloud over, ( when dwight's parents go on vacation) I kinda miss talking to his mom though. So, i called Brad's phone last nightto ask him his opinion of if he thought Seth would tlak to me or not, cause peter told me that seth told him to tell me Hi and that he isn't at all bitter towards me. Anyways, I think Karl answered the phone cause he asked who it was and I said Jodelle, and he hung up. I hate Karl, he's such an asshole. Geez, guys can be such jerks. Whatever, i decided; you know i've waited this long to deal with it and now that I tried, and it didn't work out, i say " SCREW EM!" I'm not putting forth any more efforts to talk to him or anything. Who the hell cares about him. I have the best Boyfriend in the World anyways. He loves me and i love him, and we have such a good time being together. Radwan is my love. My one and only. And by God, no-one is gonna screw with that. I love him! Danielle, one day you will wear my maid of honor dress!!! Anyways, later folks. peace worldwide, J*O*E*Y xoxoxox Current Mood: devious Current Music: What's love got to do (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 25th, 2002
5:40 pm	BLAH! Well, I talked to my buddy peter today. he said that he talked to Seth and Seth said to tell me HI and that he isn't at all bitter! WOW! I thought that was pretty cool! I'm gonna try and call him sometime but not anytime soon cause i have no clue what i would say! Anyways, my tummy really hurts! I NEED A JOB! Holy heezy fasheezy! I got to get the ball rolling soon. Anyways, i'm gonna go call my baby boy! Tata! Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: Something like you (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 21st, 2002
9:18 pm	Holy hamlet on the burdi girls Well, i went to vero beach yesterday with dwight and radwan, I was suppose to hang out with jeremy, but he bailed and then jeannine and jackie i guess came to pick me up but, those geniuses forgot the directions and the phone and didn't even wait. We made it to the gas station they were at like 5 damn minutes after they left. Whatever, i came home to jax. and i get to hang out with my wonderful boyfriend. So, danielle i tried, i really did! I still love you though! My stomach hurts.We went to chili's it was good, but i feel a little sick now! geez, they probably poisoned me! hahah! smells! well, i'm off to go make-out, no NO,NO, i mean, hang out! hahahaha Danielle, when the hell are you moving in huh? Call me you mo-fo! Love to your olive garden daddy! LOL... No more mcDonalds breakfasts! you might get fat! NO,NO,NO, just kidding! Peace in the middle east! Love to my semlly girl and to josh and jared! And phil, what is up with you and sherah! I need some updated gossip someone please! Jodelle Current Mood: flirty Current Music: dwight playing the piano (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 18th, 2002
11:20 pm	Roaring noises in my tummy! Thank you so much Eve! It's all your damn fault! Well, I had a WONDERFUL day! I went to Radwan's house to meet him so we could go out. He wanted to finish watching Hamburger Hill, so i just layed on his bed while he watched T.V. cause i had a bad tummy ache! Well, of course right before we left, i realized why my stomach hurt so damn bad! So, we went to the store to get some stuff, ya know, and while we were leaving, we ran into Mike outside! ( love that guy, he's pretty cool) ( yes, Danielle;, the mike i told you that stuff about) LOL anyways...Andrea (his girlfriend) was inside developing some pictures. There pretty cool people! Anyways, Ransom, Sam (Radwan's brothers), Radwan and I went and saw Time machine. It really sucked, i thought! Then Sam and Radwan and me went into Home Depot, we had to get some keys made, we were there for an hour looking around and talking about how we'd decorate kitchens and stuff, and the key guy never showed up, so we went to walmart instead! We also rented Pink Panther Strikes Again ( the greatest movie!) ( Jared, i thought about you while i was watching it!!!) It was just a great day with my baby boy! Oh, i got a letter from my brother today too. Gosh, he sent me pictures, my little Niece is so precious! My sister looked good too! I'm an Aunt! I'm an Aunt! Aunt Jodelle! Aww.... what a sweet sound! Oh, and i saw dragonfly last night, it was so good! Loved it! Geez, my life is sweet at moments! Radwan is the best! I love him so much! Almost as much as i love pepsi! Hee! Hee! OK, well, i'm off to take care of some stuff a round here! Danielle, come visit me soon you freak! Later peeps! JOEY Current Mood: blank Current Music: Green Day (2 Comments |Comment on this)